Glimlicht

May happiness be upon us. And you especially. Cheers :)

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 00:05:00 +0700

Many things happened recently. Good things shit things. Well life still happens after all.

Here, There, This, That, Past and Present.

This is one of the fraction,

Past. I accept. I walk. I work. I smile. I laugh. Met. I mourn. I curse. Past, I let it pass. Dont get mad lets get even, i thought. I walk. I work. I smile. I laugh. Then I feel. I sway. Afraid. I walk away. I regret. I muse. I try. I apologize. Too late. I try. I muse. Have no idea. Those mishaps I bubble wrap. I hide. I walk.

“Those emotion matter is an absurd things, I think. Because of its relativity. So, In the name of savety I learned to give no trust on it. That’s why I always stick on the superficial things. In order to feel nothing. To be focus. To be able to walk on that so-called-right-track. It was fun. Really. But once I felt you, I find it hard to keep it fun. At those murky time I made mistakes. Then I learned to accept and digest those emotion. But it was too late.”

Oh god. Look at those lame-moronic-pathetic-self-defense. Silly isn’t it? I named it as a self defense, but actually it is not. It’s merely an excuse for a complexity.

Is there anyone out there having some symptoms like mine? Lets get rid those kind of moronic complexity as soon as we can. It brings us no good, really. :)

Well, eventually a no-good-main-effect of those moronic thought and act was workin’ well. Because of it I once became a liar. Lied to myself. Lied to you. Did a lots of ridiculous thing. And caused damages. Tsk

“What the hell is she doin’ now?”

Did that words ever cross ur mind? I’m sure it did. Even me, myself, have asked that question more than hundred times. Those sensoric, perceptive, and motoric function of mine didn’t work in sync. Those so-called-silly-well built-emotion-paradigm of mine proved to be harmful.

“Why didn’t you tell me all of this crap back then?”

Same question. Did that words ever cross ur mind?

Well, there were a time when i thought i have to tell you all of those crap.

Because somehow i wanted to make everything as simple as it used to be.

But at one point when it seems that you were slowly getting back to the old you, i changed my mind.

I thought maybe it’s better to left everything untold. Because i was afraid of myself. Afraid to make another silliness that will -maybe- make things more complicated. It feels good enough to see the old you.

Tsk. See those excuses? After all, an excuses will always be right there when u need it, right? hha. Those excuses that i have wrote in here, i named it as another manifestation of my moronic thought.

To lose one of the most precious person. I’m regretting it

But I learned lots. After all.

Sincerity. Value. Cherish. Regret. And. Simplicity.

Lost some gain some. After all that’s the cycle.

Let’s be good. May happiness be upon us and you, especially. Cheers :)

"-merely"

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 20:44:00 +0700

Iron desk. Old book. Dust. Stranger. Too bored, i drew somethin’.

Then i remember the time when i was working on my sketch then you patted my head, told me that they are beautiful.

Then i remember the first time we met, when i gave you those glass plates. You called out my name right away, told me that you’ve known me for a long time. But with those bright smile I didnt even dare to think of you as a freakish. Ha

Then I remember the time when we used to call out each other’s name from the front gate. The time when i used to make a prank call from outside your room while you were working on your paper. The time when we used to play on that field. The time when i used to ring my red bike’s bell when i see you from afar. We were 18th but acted like 10th. I thought we were mental. Ha

Then I remember the time when we used to walk down the street in the middle of the night. Those steps. Those stories. Those laughter.

Then i remember those things that happened for this past two years. Those memories has change. We’ve became a stranger.

Then I remember that day. It’s been a long time. We used to walk away from each other. On that day i was planning to get away as usual. But things wasnt go as usual.

You:

“Where have you been”

“What are you up to?”

“How’s home?”

“Why dont you come yesterday?”

blablabla

….

Me:

“I’m not goin’ anywhere far. It’s me who have to ask. Where have you been?”

“I’m working on my research now”

“Home’s good”

“Couldnt make it. have something to be done”

blablabla

…

I thought i was faking everything. Smile. Laughter. But later i realize that i wasn’t.

The urge to slap myself was hard to resist.

Im cursing when walk away yet still cursing when we met.

Walk away is bad for mental health. And so it is with the present case.

I always think that life stories change over time because memory is notoriously unstable. Maybe those days were not that great. Maybe those days were merely a days. Maybe we were good and that’s it.

Anyway. I dont give a shit for that. I think i miss my old friend.

Scrolling

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 01:07:58 +0700

After nite. scrolling down. stop scrolling. click yours.

Scrolling down. stop scrolling. :)

You were the precious. and still.

After all life happens sih ya.

We were good. we will be good.

Ah si gelo besok lusa sidang what the hell am i doing :’)

Ah. by the way. cerita lain. I miss you so much Gege. Sampai beberapa bulan kedepan i will be good. for the better kan ya. Dan semua hutang cerita hutang moril hutang hati akan gue cicil satu-satu. Before the departure i’ll make it clean. all of them.

See you soon!! Yuhuuuuuu :’)

JADWAL AKADEMIK GIS FIX

Tue, 04 Dec 2012 00:06:39 +0700

Jadwal lab skil dan tutorial

http://www.4shared.com/file/hTNEnrwL/jadwal_akademik_GIS_for_Studen.html?

Two Way Monologue

Sun, 12 Aug 2012 08:33:35 +0700

A: d u know what the main problem is?
A: ?
A: Ego. It's too much too big. It won't fit. Just like a cell phone with no service. All u can do is play games.
A: aaah. That's why I always...
A: Ya. "Aaah". Am I make it clear?
A: Ya
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A: let's change somethin then.
A: like what?
A: like.. Giving first? Smiling first? Caring first?
A: good girl. I'll keep an eye on u. Let's see.
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A: thank u.. Glad to have you here. :)
A: But I'm not. Ha.

Coba Tebak

Sat, 11 Aug 2012 21:40:13 +0700

“Always end up fall back into the same patterns. Was trying to control it but end up suppressing it. The result was bad. Now? Still trying to make it right. Not really fond of it. How long will it last?”

What is ‘it’ referring to?

P.S: SEROTONINE!!! Hug!!!

Je t'aime-cover

Sat, 07 Jul 2012 18:53:17 +0700

Je t'aime-cover :

Indikasi: insomnia.
Kontraindikasi: yang mau ujian.

Onion Tears

Wed, 02 May 2012 22:58:51 +0700

Art of cooking: Penyaluran emosi via potong bawang. iris tipis. geprek. then the onion tears came out. No one will try to stop or even ask you. Why? because the onion is indeed sting your eyes.

Regret

Tue, 01 May 2012 16:39:00 +0700

it happens many times. after effect:

just have to pay more attention to details next time. rite?

This time the after effect last longer than usual

Racau

Thu, 19 Apr 2012 22:37:00 +0700

Belakangan ini banyak meracau;

1) Angkot

“Kiri-kiri Dok”

“Assalamualaikum Pak”

“Assalamualaikum.. mang”

(diucapkan ketika akan turun dari angkot)

2) Supermarket

“Makasih Mah”

(diucapkan setelah selesai bayar struk belanjaan)

Why? Why? Whyyyy? Myelin gue mungkin banyak kena abrasi jadi tipis. transmit signal neuron jadi lambat dan.. ga puguh. T.T

Yarn

Mon, 09 Apr 2012 19:06:00 +0700

“Perhaps travel cannot prevent bigotry, but by demonstrating that all peoples cry, laugh, eat, worry, and die, it can introduce the idea that if we try and understand each other, we may even become friends.” -And perhaps cannot prevent us from sudden bankruptcy hha. Hey there big hug for the laugh, the song, the light even the gasoline that we shared. hha

Cheers! :)

-little gift; Fog. Sunset. Light. :)

Brink

Sat, 07 Apr 2012 01:40:00 +0700

Wear the bag. Put on the shoes

About to run. About to explode

Shut.

I’m on a roll this time

Those things are about to crawl up from behind

That’s why i have to run

I’m on a roll this time

Turn the music up. Feel the heart beating for the song

As i saw those light, emerging blinking into

To tell me it’s allright

As i run, every siren is a symphony

and every teardrop is a waterfall

I’m on a roll this time

Anthology of Slow and Apathy

Sat, 10 Mar 2012 13:30:00 +0700

A couple words, a great divide

Waiting. Crawling out the foreground from behind

—

Take anything you want it’s fine

Take anything i want it’s fine

Keep up the slow life for the night

Don’t take it back, I’ll just deny

This constant noise all the time

—

Place my bets on chance and apathy

Feel the wind and fall asleep

—

Cheers. :)

Sophie Ellis Bextor - Get over you.

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 22:41:00 +0700

Sophie Ellis Bextor - Get over you.

Operator

Wed, 07 Mar 2012 18:14:00 +0700

Suatu malam di ranjang rumah sakit saya yang kelaparan nelpon operator pusat rumah sakit.

Operator: Malam dengan operator pusat ada yang dapat kami bantu?

Saya : ia ada. Tolong sambungkan ke kitchen ya mas.

Operator: Maaf kemana mba?

Saya : Kitchen mas kitchen.

Operator: Itu ada di daerah mana ya mba?

Saya : ??????????????

Orang lapar level emosi nya mirip wanita PMS.. Tapi karna sakit saya bertekad untuk buat amal sebanyak mungkin. Saya jelaskan ke mas-mas itu kalo kitchen adalah dapur.

Operator: Lalu mbak?

Saya : ?????????????

Saya yang ingin buat amal banyak akhirnya menjelaskan banyak hal sama si mas operator. Dari apa itu kitchen sampe apa itu fungsi dari nomor ekstensi.

Mungkin karna sudah malam Beliau itu ngangkat telpon sambil ngigo. Karna di hari-hari setelah itu komunikasi kita via telpon lancar-lancar aja*

*Contoh komunikasi lainnya:

-“Tolong sambungkan ke nomor xxxxxxx ya pa” >telpon yang isinya kalimat ini mungkin ada dua puluh kali. hahahahak

H-.. SOOCA met Ecak gina :) :) :) :) hai ukhti ;)

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 14:22:00 +0700

H-.. SOOCA met Ecak gina :) :) :) :)

hai ukhti ;)

Abang

Tue, 14 Feb 2012 00:43:00 +0700

Saya punya adek tiga. Satu lagi kuliah sebut saja Bunga -emang namanya itu. hha-Satu lagi puber, kelas 6 SD, Celine. Terakhir, kelas 1 SD, Abang Daffa.

Abang masuk SD kecepetan setengah taun lebihan dikit. Dari gelagat dia di sekolah kadang kita sekeluarga fikir dia belum cukup matur untuk masuk SD. Contoh kecil bisa dilihat saat dia menjawab soal-soal ulangan. Berikut ini contohnya:

Ulangan IPS

Soal: Siapa nama Ibu kamu?

Abang: Mami

Soal: Siapa nama Ayah kamu?

Abang: Papi

Soal: Rumah harus dibersihkan..?

Abang: Seminggu sekali

*Usut punya usut ternyata dulu waktu Mami lagi ngepel rumah, Abang sempet nanya;

Abang:”Mam kenapa kita jarang nge-pel rumah?”

Mami; “Ah seminggu sekali juga cukup.”

Ulangan PKn

Soal: Setiap manusia memiliki?

Abang: Rumah dan orang tua. *polos sekali T_T

Soal: Contoh hak anak di rumah yaitu?

Abang: Disuruh kerja

Soal: Setelah ulangan siswa berhak mendapat?

Abang: Rezeki

Ulangan IPA

Soal: Sumber energi manusia adalah?

Abang: udara *avatar?

Ulangan Bahasa Indonesia

Soal: Aku berbentuk panjang, berguna untuk menulis di atas buku. Ujungku runcing, aku adalah..

Abang: Ujungku runcing gak aku ajak loh

Ulangan Pendidikan Lingkungan hidup

Soal: Terhadap korban bencana alam kita harus memberikan semangat agar mereka? *pilihan ganda

Abang: Marah menghadapi cobaan

Soal: Menghadapi bencana alam kita diharuskan mempunyai sikap?

Abang: percaya diri

Ngeliat kertas ulangan begini Mami hanya bisa tertawa terdahak-dahak.

Contoh lainnya adalah tingkah dia saat H-1 pengumpulan tugas akhir semester. Ceritanya tugas yang masih tersisa masih ada sekitar 25 halaman lagi. Karena Abang kalo nulis lelet maka Mami dan Bibi menggantikan Abang dalam menjawab dan menulis tugas. Beberapa saat setelah pengerjaan tugas dimulai Abang malah merecoki Mami dengan bola plastiknya;

Mami: “Cik atuh jangan maceuh teuing. kalo ga ada kerjaan mah isi Pe-er nya sendiri.”

Abang: “Mami gimana sih. Mami teh Ibunya aku kan? harus sayang dong sama aku. Jadi aku jangan disuruh-suruh.”

Mami langsung leuleus sa-awak-awak lalu tertawa miris.

Theory of relativity_ special ed.

Sun, 05 Feb 2012 12:53:00 +0700

Ketika berasa jadi kerak lumut *baca:runtah* di lautan emang idealnya merasa tertarik dengan, lalu tenang setelah, nempel di bongkahan kayu atau ,yang lebih miris, nempel sama runtah yang sama-sama ngambang. That’s normal. :)

Seringkali yang ngerasa jadi kerak bertanya-tanya; “baik ga ya saya begini?”

Buat saya baik atau nggak nya depends on many dependent dan independent variable, seperti; niatan, kondisi fisik dan jiwa si kerak dan yang akan ditempeli dan blablablabla.

koncinya harus tau sampai kapan dan sejauh mana kita boleh tertarik dan menempel. Prinsipnya pake teori “relative”:

1)Jika ujungnya relative baik dan kita bisa mengolah emosi dengan baik, melanjutkan proses tertarik-lalu-menempel bisa dilanjutkan.

2)Jika ujungnya relative ga bagus, lebih baik membatasi diri. Gak ada untungnya ngikutin emosi lalu pergi jauh kalo ujungnya ga enak. Kalo ada suara lain yang bilang:

“Ga ada yang tau kedepannya kaya gimana kecuali yang di-Atas.”

Coba denger suara lain yang bilang:

“Lebih enak mencegah daripada mengobati.” :)

Emosi bisa diatur. Maka atur baik-baik sedini mungkin. :)

“Controlling your emotions doesn’t mean ignoring them. It means you recognize them and act on them when you deem it appropriate, not randomly and uncontrollably. “

Saran saya coba tunggu sampe kayu yang muncul prognosis nya baik untuk ditempeli :)

P.S:

-Suppressing emotion or denying that they exist is entirely different. Suppressing your emotions can cause physical disorders and more emotional symptoms.Many emotional problems are so complex that they require the additional professional assistance of a licensed psychologist, counselor, or social worker. hhaha :p

-Kerak lumut ngambang di laut= Fase setengah sadar setengah nggak. Setengah ikhlas setengah nggak. Fase setengah sembuh setengah ngggak. Sangat rentan ter-distraksi.

-Kayu atau runtah lain yang bisa ditempeli= Memberi sensasi nyaman, aman dan sehat. Efek sedative mungkin terasa. Pharmalogical properties kadang mirip Asam Mefenamat atau aromaterapi yang sesuai dengan Horoskop Jawa-Pranata Mangsa si kerak.

-Kalo udah terlanjur pergi jauh banyak-banyak istighfar dan berdoa aja. Semoga diberi kemudahan :)

-Selagi ngambang dan belum nemu kayu yang hukum relative nya bagus santei aja :)

"Lieur amat. Wae lah. Santei aja. Cuma butuh waktu. Maju jaya!"

Sat, 04 Feb 2012 21:33:00 +0700

Ditengah keruwetan dan kerujitan ketemu dengan orang-orang lama dan baru yang bagus-bagus:

Saudara-belah-hati Noor Rahayu, Noor Fitriani:

Bareng dari orok sampe sekarang. Liat mereka selalu merasa diingatkan dengan Anggi yang se-Anggi-Anggi nya. Kompas nya Anggi. Hhahaha. Setelah ketemu lagi kemarin mata, hati, otak makin seger. Lalu terlontar; “Lieur amat. Ya udah la ya.” :)

E for DMS. A for HIS:

Each of us pasti punya problem dan IDK hidup masing-masing. Tapi di ruang LAB, skill dan tutorial kita ketemu tanpa bawa-bawa buntut yang rujit rujit. Ada bareng mereka bikin mata dan otak makin seger.

Kalopun ada yang cerita tentang IDK hidup nya, saya berasa terhibur. Bukan maksudnya seneng liat orang susah. Tapi seneng liat cara dia menyikapinya. Seperti yang beliau bilang: “Galau itu ada waktunya”. ada bareng beliau bikin mata dan otak makin seger. Lalu terlontar: “Wae lah. Nyantei aja.” :)

#Semoga Gusti Allah ngasih jalan yang baik buat mereka ngejalanin dan namatin IDK masing-masing. :)

Teman Sejawat-Sehati:

Banyak ada dalam fase hidup early adolescent. Hhaha. Liat beberapa di antara mereka bikin mata, hati, otak makin tenang. Lalu terlontar; “I’m not alone. We’r not alone. Cuma butuh waktu aja.” :)

Adapun yang bikin mata, hati, otak sedikit keruh semoga Gusti Allah ngasih sabar dan hati tenang buat semua :)

Senior lama. Sahabat lama. Panutan lama. Cerita lama:

Dari Lodaya-Belitung-Buah batu-ganesha sampe Taman Sari. Dari lapang merah sampe kampus. Liat beliau rasanya seperti ditampar sebalikan. Lalu terlontar: “Everybody’s moving on. Gw juga..harus gitu. hhaha T_T” :)

Akhirnya terlontar juga: “Lieur amat. Wae lah. Santei aja. Cuma butuh waktu. Maju jaya!”

:) :) :)

Miss The Old Times

Sat, 04 Feb 2012 21:28:00 +0700

A:I do really miss you guys. Being left out is what i feel now. Really want to spend a lots of time with all of you. Just like the old times. Laughing. Cozing. Mencela dan dicela tanpa beban. It seems that something has changed.

B:so many things changed dear. All of us.

A:Ego kita makin gede. Mendengar dan didengar makin susah. Karena muak dengan diri sendiri dan keadaan, tanpa sadar lidah makin tajem. Sikap makin apatis. Ga maksud sih. Aku sedih. DAMN I HATE THOSE THINGS.

B:sometimes i love the way you starred, your what-the-hell-eyes

A:and when was that?????? Dont even realize that -__-

B:you always do that. One thing, maybe we need time to introspect ourselves for a moment..